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Sunday, 10 May 2015

Bun in the Oven and Happy Mother's Day!

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So the cat's out of the bag, I've a bun in the oven. 

By the way the photo on the left is inspired by the one on the right or something of that kind. I thought since my baby bump is finally showing a bit, I'll attempt one of those touching toddler-kiss-pregnant-belly kind of photo but as you can see, that type of thing wasn't going to happen in my family. I ended up with "Huh?! We're gonna have a baby instead of a puppy?" shot. You know, something like one of those Pinterest fails that you've seen going around on Facebook?

Personally I've always dreamt of myself being one of those mums with that pregnancy glow who manages to take beautiful baby bump photos and maintains a reasonably active lifestyle throughout pregnancy. But the truth could not be further from that; I suffered from moderate to severe pregnancy sickness (or morning sickness) for each pregnancy and this time is the worst so far. It fact I had to be hospitalised for dehydration (from excessive vomiting) and heart palpitation. The ordeal left me drained physically, mentally and emotionally; I even suspected that I went through a few panic attacks and a period of antenatal depression. It was difficult for me to talk to anyone regarding how I felt because it's something seldom talked about, unlike post-natal depression, and truthfully I was afraid of being judged as I'm supposed to be living in the bliss of being blessed with a new life, yet I was moping in misery.

In this post I just want to share what I personally felt as one who went through a time of severe pregnancy sickness of nausea and vomiting. This by no means at all represents any or all who might have or are going through the same symptoms but I hope to share some real thoughts and feelings from my perspective.

In the midst of my nausea, retching and heart palpitations, I was thinking:
  1. Nausea is a biatch! It turned a usually optimistic person into a vessel of pessimism. It was just difficult to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

  2. The notion about pregnancy sickness being a "security" that the pregnancy is progressing well is hard to accept. I've known some who have safely given birth to healthy children without going through any episode of nausea or vomiting. 

  3. The thought of the possibility of being nauseated throughout the pregnancy can be crippling. Imagine being seasick or having food poisoning for the whole nine months, that was how I was feeling.

  4. It is NOT "only" nausea and vomiting, I was almost incapacitated and was on bed rest most of the time. Almost anything I did caused nausea and vomiting, of course, it wasn't really what I did, it was the pregnancy or hormones associated with pregnancy that was the cause. It didn't matter whether I was standing, sitting or lying down, I was nauseated and vomiting the same. Whether I ate in small meals or large, regularly or irregularly, I was still retching like nobody's business. Any smell or taste (even plain water) sent me straight to the white throne. The worst part was I did not feel any better after I regurgitated.

  5. This may be specific to me (or not). I felt way better with my children around me because they never fail to make me laugh even in the midst of my discomfort. Some friends and relatives were very kind and they offered to take my children out so that I could rest but I felt awful and depressed when I was alone.

I'm thankful that I've finally come out of it somewhat. I'm still feeling the nausea but I'm not vomiting as much and I still get heart palpitations every now and then, however, my mood is better these days and I'm able to do more now. I have my loved ones and supportive friends to thank for supporting me throughout this "dark period", without them, it would've been a more arduous journey for me.

On this Mother's Day, I'm glad to be able say I'm excited to be a mother of three. 

Happy Mother's Day to all mothers and those who play the mothering role to others. You deserve a day dedicated to you!

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